Thoughts of a person in danger!

I am so exhausted. Maybe now it is time to change. Didn´t mum suggest that I go to the beach? Sunbathing for several days...yes! I think I did my best in the city, so it is time to relax.
But, what will happen if they find me there? No....please Tom, don´t think so, it cannot be. They promised me that the farther I am, the safer I will be.
Maybe I should have left things  as they were, and shouldn´t have plated being a detective.
For God´s sake Tom! Mmm...Tom? Mm...Oh, I mean Jack! I can´t forget it, they said to me. Now I am Jack! It would be really funnywhen I say: "Hello I am Tom! Oh, no...I am Jack! nice to meet you!" Oh my God, I need more practise!!
All was Emma´s fault! She conviced me to tell the police. Ok ok, I look stupid, I am full of regrets but now it is too late to think of the past.
What can I do? I have an awful new name, a small flat and Oh! I forgot! I can´t contact my lover, she might think she is going alone with our wedding! The last some word that I said to her a month ago, so I could protect her were; " I will came back in a few minutes, I am going to buy cigarettes."